The Sacred Nature of Ambiguity

Hi, welcome back to your Daily Mindfulness. In today's session, we're going to talk about not knowing. We tend to have a complicated relationship to ambiguity in our culture. We view it as a sign of weakness or as something that needs to be quickly rushed through, get to the clarity. To me, this is not only a subtle form of oppression against ourselves, but it's also a massive lost opportunity.

Not knowing is sacred territory in my opinion. It represents, what I call, the space between ego delusions. You're no longer caught by your previous ideas of what you thought you needed to achieve to be happy. You've been disillusioned by that. And you haven't yet grabbed on to the next idea of what you think is going to lead to your ultimate happiness and refuge.

Maybe it's that thing. And usually when we rush out of this not knowing, we're just trying to find something else we can grab onto for a sense of stability. But this is ego stability we're talking about. Just another idea that we can latch ourselves onto. Like, maybe that will be where my happiness comes from.

But it doesn't. That's never ending. So instead I think this not knowing is an opportunity for you to draw deeper, to get comfortable with the territory of uncertainty. And to use it as a way to listen more deeply for subtle truth within you about what to do next. Not just your mind's ideas of how to escape the discomfort of ambiguity, but a more simple voice within you that says, I don't know how all this plays out, but this feels like the next step.

And you may need to wait some time until you get that clarity. But remember not knowing isn't not knowing. You know that you don't yet know. That is a form of knowing. It's knowing what is true in you right now.

So treat it as an opportunity, not a deficit. Use it to refine your deep listening and wait until you receive instruction on your next step. Thank you for your practice. Let's settle in for today's meditation.